Friday, March 2, 2012

I am SO blessed y'all!

Greetings from Southern California!

I'm on a mini-vacay to get my dose of Sunshine from my amazing niece. And I am feeling so amazingly wealthy - even though there's only a couple of bucks in my wallet.

You see....

I am so blessed - so blessed with friendship, with family and good fortune. For the first time in my life, I really feel like The Universe is finally working in my favor. If I had only realized sooner - that the path to my future was there, I just had to take it. I had to choose it. I had to do something scary, something bold to get it started.

You see, I have realized an extremely important life lesson over the past month: I have realized that in order to move forward & be able to accept what The Universe has in store for you - you have to get rid of what's holding you back. If you have bad things, negative people & negative things that you're clinging to for whatever reason - fear, doubt, etc - then you have no room in your life for the good things that want to come your way. And good things DO want to come your way, my friends. And they will!

On February 8th of this year I abruptly quit a job I'd despised for the better part of 4 years. A job I kept because I was scared of being jobless, penniless - I was afraid of starting over. I was afraid of shaking up my otherwise fairly good life.

But the filth from being unhappy and in a negative situation for so long was taking over. I barely knew myself anymore. I was sick all the time. I was miserable at the very core of my being. The Universe kept the good away - because it's likely I wouldn't have seen it anyway, all wrapped up in my self-loathing & feeling "stuck".

I don't know exactly what made me make that decision to quit that job on the 8th of February. But whatever it was, it was right. Even if I was lying in a ditch under a bridge somewhere right now I'd tell you I'd still made the right decision.

That was the day I declared my independence. The day I decided that my life is about me & realized that i'd allowed my story to be dictated on someone else's terms. Not my own. And my friends, no one, no job, nothing should dictate your life but you. You are the rider up there on the fickle horse called Life. You and only you. If you listen to yourself & what Life is telling you, remain in tune with Life, give him all the right signals & treat him with respect - if you do those things, Life will work for you. Sure, Life may get spooked sometimes - and those are the times when you must keep your cool. And remember: in this ride called Life you must keep your heels down & your head up - because when you look down - you go down. If you do fall down - no big deal. Do what you have to do. Dust yourself off, make sure nothing's broken & climb right back up on that horse.

Now that I've gotten the metaphors out of my system, I have good news! I am no longer unemployed! I have 2 amazing friends who found out I was jobless & went out on a limb to help me. And I'm happy to tell you that I now have two jobs! One starts Monday & I will be counseling heroin addicts in a similar setting as I was before - but my new boss & co-workers are amazing! I loved the vibe I got from everyone when I went in to interview. I'll be back with the co-worker who helped keep me sane over the 4 terrible years at my previous job. I was without her for a little over a month before I left that job & I missed her dearly!

This is a much better company with goals more in line with my own. My other job is a pool position in the behavioral health department at a local hospital. This positions holds amazing potential for me as well! Not only are they a great company to work for - but it's also an entirely new setting for me. I can't wait to get started! I'll be back with another former co-worker from my first job here in Phoenix. She is amazing & I'm so happy that our paths have crossed yet again.

So you see - I let go of what was holding me back & The Universe sent in its angels - 2 of my dearest friends & former co-workers - to guide me to my next stop on the way to where I'm going. It came back to me two-fold.

*Disclaimer: I am not encouraging anyone to just quit their jobs & shun their responsibilities. I wish things would've gone down differently - but it is what it is. And this month has been ridiculously hard with no income & a trip to Canada coming up. But I would like to challenge you to look at your life with new eyes. What things in your world are you hanging on to that need to go? Even if it's nothing more than purging your garage of the crap you don't need anymore. Set aside some time & JUST DO IT! Then let it be therapeutic for you. And enjoy yourself once it's been accomplished. Your world is full of possibilities. But you may need to take out the trash first.

& also - my niece sends her love! :)

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