Monday, May 30, 2011

Music For the Morning - Memorial Day Aftermath!

I had an amazing weekend - I totally needed it! I spent Saturday wandering the Farmer's Market with my sista from anotha mista (AKA M) and our friends B & M. Boy did we ever rack up on the fresh fruits and veggies! I should have remembered to take pictures but I had my hands full of so much awesome stuff  I didn't have the ability to snap photos too!

I also found kale chips, gluten free chocolate (I have to thank B or he'll get his panties in a wad, he actually found my chocolate...) and so much more fun stuff! I wanted to buy it all!

We had lunch at Chompie's - after much research on which Valley restaurants had extensive gluten free options. It was fabulous! Then it was time for impromptu pedicures! We're such daredevils! ;)

After the shopping & lunch fun we were invited to a pool party with some of my favorite peeps. I drank entirely too much tequila and had to sleep at M & J's house. Which led to dehydration and being up until 3:30am - that wasn't so fun. But surprisingly my hangover was only minimal. I had so much fun with M & J - it was amazing to see them, it feels like it had been forever! They always make me happy!

Sunday and Monday were spent lounging and sleeping - with more pool time thrown in. I started my first class at my new University today, on a holiday (weird) but all I had to do was post a personal bio - so not hard at all.

I love holiday weekends!

But now it's almost time to head back to the grind... Here's some fun stuff to start off your 4 day work week!


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Saturday, May 28, 2011

Music For The Morning


Happy Saturday!

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I've been meaning to play this song for ya'll. I love it - because back home in Georgia I used to drive to work across Flint River Bridge :)


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Friday, May 27, 2011

{plus size} fashion friday - fashion FAIL.



NO Monif C this is NOT acceptable.

Just because I'm fat doesn't mean I'm going to wear a two piece (if you could call it that) bathing suit with granny panties. NO! STOP IT! Just fill in that little gap of material and maybe we'll talk... 





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Music For The Mor... Afternoon.

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Have I mentioned that I think Rhianna has issues? 

Well I do... but I also LOVE this song!

Has she decided to "switch sides" all of the sudden? 

{insert Chris Brown joke in bad taste here}


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Wednesday, May 25, 2011

{semi} wordless wednesday


Happy Wednesday Lovelies! 

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I'm attempting to do some de-cluttering in my life. 

To avoid the people who cause me the most stress, and eliminate those who see me as an option though I make them as a priority. 









It's a hard thing to do sometimes. 

To realize that someone who means the world to you doesn't feel the same way about you. 

But in the end - life is far to short to spend it worrying over those who aren't worrying about you.


In the end - those people don't matter. 

The ones that matter are the ones who have invested in you as much as you have invested in them. 

Those are the ones worth fighting for.



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Monday, May 23, 2011

No gluten today = no depression today




It's like night and day... No mind fog, the headaches weren't as bad (but thanks to seasonal allergies, still there), no excessive tiredness. 

This is a rather staggering realization however. Must process it more...

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MFTM


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Sunday, May 22, 2011

Getting to know YOU!


1. what's your favorite rainy day activity?
SLEEPING!!!

2. what time do you go to bed?
as early as possible

3. how many magazines do you subscribe to?
ummmm.... I don't even know! like 5 I think...

4. did you sell all your belongings because you thought the world was ending yesterday?
Nope.

5. what's your beauty obssesion?
anything that makes me smell good
Did this come from Engrish.com ?

6. if you could only wear one designer/brand for the rest of your life...what would it be?
inconceivable! 

7. what's your summer must have?
my swimming pool

8. do you make weekly dinner menus?
in my head



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Well...


I didn't really get anything accomplished that I'd wanted to this weekend - except the grocery shopping. And picking up my  fresh produce from the co-op Saturday morning. Which was friggin' AWESOME by the way... 

But everything else I needed to do around here, put away the piles of things in my room, deep clean the house, re-arrange the patio furniture, clean and re-organize my office, remove the furniture that does not belong in the living room from the living room... none of that got done. I haven't even done the laundry. I'm not REALLY procrastinating - I just have no desire to do much of anything at the moment. I did run Roomba - which doesn't really count because I have to run Roomba daily with the 4 dogs around.

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That link has some great anti-procrastination information by the way - meh... read it later.

I did get a little R & R in the pool yesterday. It perked up my mood for a bit. Now it's back to "bleh". I also ate entirely gluten free yesterday. Thursday, Friday and today I ate pizza (I can't let leftovers go to waste...) - which I think has something to do with my mood. I talked a bit about this on the weight loss blog - but I have this theory that I am allergic to wheat and/or gluten. I can't go to the doctor at the moment to find out for sure, but when I eat it I feel horrible. Lethargic, depressed, just want to sleep, upset stomach... Any number of other things. But with all this depression, the thought of entirely eliminating gluten from my house is a rather daunting task. I'm just too friggin' tired... Somebody send the Gluten Fairy to anti-gluten my kitchen, k?

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I know I sound like a whiney bitch - and if I had to read this on someone else's blog I'd tell them to buck up and get over it because no one wants to hear it... (ok not really). But there's just something very wrong and I can't seem to figure out exactly what it is.

It doesn't help that I pissed off one of my favorite people on the planet on Friday - by reacting before thinking... which should be a rather difficult thing to do in an email. Not for me apparently, in my obnoxious state. Now he's not speaking to me. Geeze... SORRY! 

Let me find a hole to crawl into before I screw anything else up. I gotta go back to work tomorrow - this should be fun...

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Thursday, May 19, 2011

This is not a shiny, happy post.

So.... The quitting smoking thing failed - for now. I blame my boss - God love her. Well... it isn't actually her fault per se - it's work in general. She's the boss though, so she gets to be the scapegoat. That's what you get with the pay raise you receive when agreeing to be the manager. Middle managers should be renamed scapegoats. That's why I refuse to be one. 

The past week has been absolute hell. I feel like I am living in an alternate universe. I can't leave work at work and enjoy my time at home - because I'm constantly worried about what I'm going to have to deal with at work the next day. I may go off the radar a bit this weekend. I need to unplug. 
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I found out yesterday that one of my clients died by overdose. Sure - it's expected in the field I work in. It doesn't make it any easier to have to deal with. I've been combing through the year she was in treatment with us trying to figure out what I could've done to prevent it - to predict it. But when it all boils down, those who truly intend to take their own lives don't tell people that they are planning to do it. If they truly want to end their lives, they don't call crisis or suicide hotlines. They just do it. 

This news comes after I learn one of my pregnant clients decided to have a late term abortion. She tested positive for pregnancy back in the fall... Her baby could've survived outside of the womb. When I asked her why she chose to abort it at this point instead of just giving it up for adoption she said "I could never do that."

OH! Because killing it is a better option?!?! 

As someone who wants to have children but is unable to at the moment - this whole entire situation infuriated me. We all have varying opinions on abortion - mine is that it's murder. At any stage. You know what causes pregnancy - take precautions. If you got pregnant, you were supposed to. Don't kill it. 

I don't want to get into a whole abortion debate - I just wanted you to know my opinion on it so that you could understand how difficult it was for me to sit in my office listening to this and not throw things at this girl. 

I won't even start on the type of doctor that would do an abortion at this stage. I was so disturbed I had to research it - apparently late term abortions aren't illegal in the state of Arizona. They should be. What I discovered was horrifying - and I am going to pray for her immortal soul for having done it. 

So... This weekend I'm going to try to relax and get some much needed stuff done around the house. If you don't hear from me for a day or two, that's why. Tomorrow is going to be a horrible day at work too. When it's over I may just crash. I'm not in a good spot at the moment. I wish this was a more positive post - but if I'm not feeling shiny and happy I'm not good at faking it...

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